Bèl

Mizisyen Bèl Mwen....

I thought of you today... 
While I was listening to a song.
I barely know you... I realize... 
But I must say you left quite the impression.

Everything from your smile, to your eyes, to your enthusiasm for life had me from the day we met.
And my heart broke just a little bit when I thought I'd nearly lost you, even though I never had you.
That incident opened my eyes... 

Something changed in those few days.
Somehow, I knew there was something that just wasn't right.
And when I confirmed it, I had to let you go... 
It didn't come from nowhere. 
I had my valid and blatant reasons... 
But...
It wasn't easy.  
It seems to hurt more when you know you have to give up something that feels so good at the moment but will only result in nothing good later on... 

Still you forced your way into my life... again and again...  into my soul. 
That was the worst part... That strange chemistry... That connection... Where did it come from?
No matter how many times I pushed you away, you came right back.  

You left a signature on my heart I still can't seem to erase.  

All things come to an end.. good and bad. 
That's the only guarantee we have in life. 

It's a shame that I sensed the facade from that one particular day... 
Maybe I'd currently be living in your fantasy world... 

How can I feel regret for something I'm grateful for?
You did me some good.
You taught me all the things I want..... and reminded me clearly of those that I don't.

I miss your kind words and affection...
I don't miss your insincerity and falsehoods.... 

I know there's something amazing underneath all that yearning for attention... positive and negative...
Something absolutely wonderful...
I was able to sneak a peek... and it was breathtaking.  
I wish you'd let the world see it... that's when you'd shine the most... 
It's bittersweet that I won't be there to experience it... but I know it's there...

I guess you were just another lesson learned...  
Mizisyen Bèl Mwen....

 







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