Brief Moments of Insanity

On a Friday evening, as I was coming out of the gym... a young man I was communicating with decided that it was a good idea for us to meet for drinks. Now, when I say I was communicating with him... it had only been a day. He seemed harmless enough but I usually screen potentials for a week or more before I decide to move any further. Well, the way I was feeling... it was either go out for drinks or stay home and turn in circles on a Friday night. I went ahead and decided that since trying to get to know someone before going out with them, doesn't seem to work for me, why not just go out for spur of the moment drinks.  Maybe I should've known better? This dude decides to pick me up. Nice car... black tinted windows (Red flag? Nahhhh).... From his pictures, he was not all that attractive, but in person he was better looking.  Actually kind of adorable. Small frame for an italian guy.  Very young face for a 33 year old.  Very little gray hairs here and there.. whi

No matter how picky or selective people continue to accuse you of being... there is NO reason to settle. Go after what you want even if it's exhausting... draining... Eventually, something has to give. Something I've learned this year (on more than one occasion) is that when you find yourself settling for something or someone beneath your standards, you end up assed out.  That person you've "settled" for eventually realizes they're not truly up for the challenge and after you've attached yourself in some form, they find a way to opt out.  Because they can't take it... because they're insecure... and simply because they know in their heart of hearts... that even though they really wanted you to be... you are not for them to have... to keep.... to enjoy... and that, maybe, they should've continued their search and allowed you to continue yours. When you've "settled" for a situation, that situation eventually starts to spiral o

1 - Dudes that think they can buy Magnums when they're clearly NOT their size! Man: "But they're so comfortable!" Woman *thinking*: Because it's too big for you, ass!   It's a condom, not a sweatshirt! 2 - When dudes tell us, women, how we feel; We can communicate our feelings just fine!!! Thanks! I don't recall y'all being able to read my mind!  3 - When you dudes go on and on bragging about how size doesn't matter.  That it's the girth that matters....       And here it is, YOU HAVE NEITHER! 4 - When one minute men brag about their head game... and it turns out it's only a tease since they can't even deliver!!!! Extended Sexual Orgasm by Alan and Donna Brauer... It's a book... Go pick that shit up and learn how to control yourself. 5 - Men, women need cheerleaders during sex also!  A small little huff or puff or a small squeaky, "Ok I'm done," when you climax is insufficient.

A little over two months ago, I received an email from an old flame. It led to a series of emails which I decided to stop as it was really just boring me. I knew eventually, all that would happen is that I would get annoyed with someone and take it out on the old flame and bring up things he did that would just not result in anything... but my aggravation. I ended it by telling him that I wanted to move on. That he has moved on by not only falling in love, but also getting married and posting it all over the world wide web... and if he was truly happy then he had no business writing the woman who once loved him and his children more than anything else in the entire world. I mean, was that fair to his new wife and stepchildren? Probably not. I told him it wasn't fair for me either.  That I should be able to find the same things for myself and live happily ever after. Around this time, I was ready to really just throw in the towel. I told "Omar" that I was basica