Showing posts from May, 2015

Bouts of Anger

Last night, on my way home, I was thinking about how very angry I've been over the past 3 months.
Straight up angry.  Somewhat resentful.

There are days where I can let the anger go more than others, but for the most part it's still there.

When confronted by my boss about my feelings, I told him exactly what was bothering me in regards to our work and personal relationship.
The truth is, when I'm feeling extra angry, there is no good way to express myself.
I think we have an understanding now of how I feel and why, and where I'm at with it.
I need to either gather my thoughts (which may take a couple of days) until I can express myself, or just sweep it under the rug.

He's not the only thing that has had me angry.

I have very legit reasons for feeling the way that I do in all aspects of my life.. with people, with situations...
I learned a couple of years back that there are some people you cannot reason with and instead of being confrontational, I've let it …

Riding It Out

I wonder how many people are up right now at this late hour crying into their pillows over a broken heart...?
Be in their first time or their millionth time.

I wonder how many people are sitting in their very own puddles of sadness... wishing that somehow they could have done something to save them the pain.

Maybe, if they hadn't pursued that person/situation in the first place... if they had just left it alone.
Maybe... if they'd only kept everything friend zoned... they wouldn't feel like they've lost pretty much everything for nothing.
If they had just LISTENED to every word being said... even now...

If they had opened their eyes, put their foot down... been a bit more guarded.
Maybe if they hadn't opened up as much or the opposite... maybe if they'd just opened up their mouths and stood their ground a bit firmer...

If they could just go back and change something.

I wonder how many people are crying their hearts out of their eyes, beating themselves up over …

You Can Do Better?!?!?

A while back, I went to visit a very close friend of mine because I needed to get away before I lost my mind.  For most of my time there, I managed to avoid the most obvious question and because this friend has known me for 20 years, I'm sure she knew better than to ask.

After a couple of glasses of wine, of course, I spilled the beans...
But even slightly teased by alcohol, I knew better than to go into detail... you know just the basic, "it just didn't work out but he was quite wonderful" tale......
The uglier details were for me, myself and I and will remain that way until the end of time.
Still she couldn't help but utter the most annoying 4 words I've ever heard in my entire life...

"You can do better."

She meant well and she always has, but you don't know how often I've heard this phrase.
I came back, not feeling refreshed, but I think I came back feeling worse about the situation for a little while.

At my age, I don't think peopl…