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One Month

It's been a month.
A month.
And I've come to the conclusion that her death was totally, and entirely my fault.
I could've done more and I simply didn't.
I could've checked up on her more often, I could've called every day, I could've visited more, I could've tricked her into going to the doctor.  I could've just done more.
It's absolutely my fault and there's no one in this world who can change my mind.

The sudden loss of a parent is absolutely awful.
That's not to say, that knowing your loved one is going to die is any better.
But thinking that this person is okay and will last you a very long time, only to be completely wrong about it, simply isn't easy.

It comes with tons of sadness, tons of guilt, tons of regrets.

It's been a month since she's passed and all I can think about is all of the "what if's" she left behind.
What if I had been more attentive...
What if I had forced her to go to the hospital afte…